Cubicle World

I'm not proud to say that I am one of those people living in the cubicle world. We are like a little robotic society with lots of rules staring from the way we dress, what to do, how to handle things, and the most ironic is how our cubicle should look like. I know I'm not a tree and I should probably just move if I don't like being here, but there's always excuses. On the positive side, I try to look at it as something that feeds my soul, I mean, most artist tends to be suffering in someways. I' m not planning to stay long, just until I found my niche. 

How does living in a cubicle world feeds my soul? Here's a little insight:

1. I get to break the rules. It makes me feel cool. Sometimes too much freedom it ain't easy.

2. Makes me feel I'm different. And I like that feeling. I'm different because I break the rules. 

3. Somehow stimulates my creativity. It's like how to make a difference from the boring routines. 

4. There's so much emotional to explore, I think it's quite healthy to experiences many types of emotions even though it's a negative one. How can I talk about coping a negative thing if I never went through it?

5. Makes me do more art. This is the best part, there's so many time wasted for endless conversation about nothing interesting (a.k.a meetings) and I get to make doodles or post a blog.

So if you asked me how's life in the cubicle world? My answer will be it's quite okay. I don't have plans to climb that corporate latter, it's just going to be a temporary place to be.

Happiness

The sun, sea, and blue sky are happiness to me :)

"The most important thing is to enjoy your life—to be happy—it's all that matters."

Audrey Hepburn

Bad hair day

Have you ever had a hair fix and rather got a hair ruined? Well, that just happened to me. Cannot blamed anyone actually... It was one lazy Sunday morning where I had nothing to do, so I got a little creative, and cop cop cop... Just like that. All I wanted was a cute bang like Audrey Tautou. I always adore her style. But like always, different face would not suit for the same hair cut. Instead of a cute bang, I got a too-short-not-straight bang. So for the next few days or maybe for a month I would not be able to see my face, it just cannot be fixed. Note to self would be: stop being creative when I got bored (this is not the first time it happened).

Relationships

I learn about relationships mostly from books and TV series. Not much has happened in my life, so that's why I needed a little guide. And as may other girls in her twenties, Sex and the city would be a good reference. I'm now watching it again randomly, and found myself in the same situation (somewhere in season 4). It's about how hard it is to stay in a relationship. And like the girls, I preferred and needed my singlelity. It made me feel selfish, but I just needed to have my time alone. Like Carrie, there are times I miss going home to an empty room and just being me. Maybe I'm just weird, but I don't care. Happy weekend :)

Total surrender

Did I do too much yoga lately? I'm not sure how much is too much, but all I can think and do is all about yoga. Like when I go for shopping, all I wanted to buy is a pair of legging or that cute sport bra. Most of my post is about yoga, and I spent so many hours looking in Pinterest with the keyword yoga. I go to four uoga classes every week. Love all of them. I guess I'm obsessed. It's like I'm in total surrender with yoga. When I do yoga in a class I feel like living in the moment because I don't have to think about anything else. And yoga is always better with friends. Not to mention it also developed my very bad social skills hahaha... I used to be that awkward quiet girl in a class and almost everywhere else. I'm so introverted and it's always hard for me to start a normal conversation. After going to several class full of strangers, some how I managed to talk to the person next to me and then we became friends. I still like to go everywhere by myself, but I now rather like to sit in the communal table rather than the small corner table by myself. Too much yoga? I don't think so :) 

A Saturday well spent

What do people do on Saturdays? My usual routines would be waking up late and going to afternoon yoga class then be a lazy bear for the rest of the day. It's like Saturday equals lazy :) Last Saturday, everything seems to changed. I got up early to buy the 1 IDR ticket to Bali. Anything with the price tag 1 in any currency is a great deal. No yoga for me... The longest time I've been off from yoga (1 week!) and it doesn't feel good, so I cheer up myself by going to a small coffee shop I loved with the intention to read a book. Got the coffee and a nice conversation instead. Forget about the book, connecting with people is better! 

I kinda surprised myself lately, for introverted-me, I usually avoid talking to people and hide myself with a book. And I don't know why I now like talk to strangers in my yoga classes and even managed to made friends with some. Maybe I have changed or maybe I've just met the right kind of people :) 

Savasana

Savasana

The most peaceful time after doing those weird yoga poses. Even though we were told to focus on our breathing, but the fact is that lots things pop out of my mind. Does that happened to everyone? Or is it just me? It's like my mind won't stop saying things. I'm so quite and I feel peace, but I can't help to think about things like making this post, or thinking does other people also think things or that I'm so hungry :) I'm not ready for meditation (yet). I love savasana because it's the only time I don't have to interact with other people and it is so peaceful. I need that kind of peacefulness even just dor some minutes.

Rich

Sometimes I think that people in my society overrated the definition of "rich". I work in a 9 to 5 job where my boss thinks that being rich will be having all the money, business, assets, and those kind of things. It's all about the things. I never agreed on that. I always think that being rich is having lots of great moments in life, being able to enjoy life to it's fullest, and can share some kindness to the world. It's not that money isn't important, because this crazy world we live in rolls around it, but it's not the point. I preferred adventures to make me rich :) 

Sunset

Sunset... My favorite time of the day. Today, I get the chance to be just alone, with nothing to do, just me, watching the sun sets...

Got a little bit mellow. Listening to my all time favourite mellow song, "I don't know you anymore" by Savage Garden. Just got carried away. Nice afternoon :) 

Just wandering...

The dark clouds ahead reflects the range in my heart. I know there's something out there for me but I can't see it yet and there's this burning desire to get up and go out there but it feels like my hands and feet are stuck in the ground.

Being 30 something and still not knowing what I want is not a good thing. I know what I like and don't like, and I know I have that much strength to get what I want, but I guess I'm missing the big piece. I wander at what age do people know what they want in life? Or does some people not knowing that until the day they die? How many people out there are doing things that they love? 

My travel companions

I love going to new places, but always with the same friend, my Teddy Bear. Teddy has been going with me since the begining of my travels. I don't know why I needed Teddy, but it won't be a nice trip without Teddy. 

Love is...

It's 14th of February on a Saturday. It's a great time for those love birds to escape and celebrate the love day. But actually, what is love?

Sometimes I think that love is just an illusion. Because you never really know, don't you? For me, love is caring for someone without even knowing if the love is ever returned or not. So what's it for you? :) 

Happy valentine's day! 

Think less, feel more

If there's something I learned from my yoga classes, is that to think less and feel more. I love those classes because it is the only time I get to connect with myself. You'll never know how much you can bent. I love the peacefulness that clears my messy mind. 

I have been doing yoga for the past 5 months and fallen more in love with it. I try to do it four times a week. I went to different classes every time, because discipline needs variation. My favorite class would be acro yoga class. I'm still amazed in how much my body can bent if I'm brave enough. After all, do more of what makes you happy :)

Enjoy Life

How to enjoy life? For me, just being at the beach is life simple pleasure. The sun, sand, and sea, what could be better?

I wander do people nowadays still consider nature as a way to enjoy life? Because looking at the people these days, their gadgets are sometimes far more important than being at the place. How do people around the world enjoy their lifes? Or does people stop enjoying life because there are far more importants things to do out there? I just wandered...

Small reminders

Do any of you have a 9 to 5 boring day job and wanted to quit but too scared? Hahaha... That's where I am right now and it's been five years :| something must be wrong with me! When I try to figured out what's wrong with me, I think is that I don't really know what I wanted from life, so I'm just floating no where in between. 

One thing I know for sure is that I always enjoyed traveling. So to not forget that, I put this little monk statue on my work desk. I got it on my first solo travel in Siem Reap, Cambodia. A little reminder the feeling of being alive that I could only feel when I go some where new.

I'm always interested on how someone knew what they want from life? How did you know yours? I'm still searching, but I think it gets more exciting nowadays :)

Why bear?

Bear isn't my birth name. But why Bear? It just happened when I started to loved Teddy Bears. I don't collect them, but I have one that stayed with me since I was 5 years old. Because my love of that Teddy Bear, people started to call me Liesha Bear :) which I love, so there it goes... For my travel companion, my old Teddy is too fragile (she's 26 years old now, quite old for a Teddy Bear) and a bit too big to carry around, so when I saw this little guy at a flea market, it was like a match made from heaven :) 

New me, new blog

One of my bad habit is making a new start out of no where. I made this blog on a work day, because the idea of having a blog about daily fun things kept flying in my mind. Most of my post will probably be about my travels, yoga journey, pretty things I found, DIY stuff, with a little bit of fashion. 

Pictures are important for me. It's easier for me to tell a story if I could show a picture. I'm naturally quiet and I'm not good with words. But it's 2015 already, I guess it's a good thing to try something new, like starting a conversation with strangers and joining some group. That's my one and only resolution. 

No more explanations needed, so let's just enjoy life :)